Then I decided to back off and focus on what I really liked doing and asked myself how can I apply what I have learned to things that I really enjoy. I got myself a decent job earned some money. Then I would go to concerts and bars that had bands and lounge types and yes play video games that I enjoyed. I maintained my fitness routine and just let go of all the so called steps and tactics PUA land has taught me. I stopped faking it completely and just became honest to people. I started to really embrace the thought of "You can't make everyone happy so might as well attract people that would appreciate you for who you really are." I think that is what X=X means to me. So I am at work it was lunch time I got some pizza gave it to my office mates because I genuinely wanted to treat them because it was my first real pay. There was a cute girl there she and i were talking and in my mind i could hear myself saying "Oi do step123" I guess it happens out of habit and it takes a longer time for it to be totally detoxed out of your system but this time I let go and just talked like a normal dude didn't care if she would find me nerdy for playing video games and started to express what is really on my mind with no filter to impress her. I was really speaking with my gut. Anyway too much story for this I will now get to the meat.